I never actually update here and I probibly should.. it just seems I'm updating everything just because I have time to.

But at the moment, I'm completely and utterly lost. Can't think straight and everything seems to be going one way then suddenly the other. I can feel my self taking a huge step back from people, stepping away and hiding. For what reason? why? hell if I know. Things have just gotten... overly confusing. and no, I'm not complaining... not really venting.. I donno what I'm doing. I'm just typing out the words that are running though my head. I'm tired, and my mind is racing faster than I can keep up with.. I just now had so many things to write down, but my hands are no where near as fast. Then when I try to go back to them, they are lost. Maybe if I just float in the clouds and stay back a little, things might go normal. Or, I could make things worse. I'm on a border line of what to do. I'm not here at all... I'm lost somewhere and trying to find a way back... I just want a way back. 

This may be odd timing, but I see myself starting to miss my cousin alot... I really wish forrest was here... or that he would answer my email... he should.... unless something happened... The war In Iraq when he's there only makes me ignore politics more than usual and wanting him home no matter what. I need someone like him... I really do miss him

I'm off to do something else to get my head back into everything... but I doubt it'll work... wish me luck.

JKGHJLstaukfgsjklahfyliuhaJKHflis.ehdgjk.hLIUGYhlkj.eershdbgjkb EEET YOU... yeah if you can't tell I still feel in a really out-of-it-incapible-to-do-anything-gunna-stab-a-bunny mood...sooo yeah...... DEATH BECOME US.... and JAY and MAGGIER ARE COMMING TO THE MOUNTAIN! YAY! WESA GUNNA PARTAY! WHOOOT WHOOOT!!! and yeah... that's all i have to say

I'm sorry I never post.. I actually haven't posted since my first time being on this name... *sigh* I've been on my Rp Sheska name from Amstris high.. it'a a Fullmetal Role play site.. anyway I thought I should post here.. and I just want to type out that I feel really Crappy recently.... I have no idea why, but I've been soo out of it. *sighs again* someone shoot me please... any way... life goes on... I have to acting classes in the new semester. YAY! and I got an A on my japenese and English finals. MORE YAY! but yeah.. that's all.... oh and Levi apperently can't pay attention worth shit at play practice... well no one really can... so whatever.. and also I typr the "..." waaaaaaaay tooo much... <--- see?? SEE?!?!? there is TOTALLY SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME!

YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOla.... and sijhfsaogxfal;ws.... but yeah I am new.... and I have like NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK I AM DOING!!! so like yeah... I love jay cause she helps me... and molests me and stuff.. so she is... FAB-U-LOUSIS!!! and stuff.. so yeah